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post_secret_feed) wrote2025-09-14 12:20 amSeptember is Suicide Prevention Month
To: “frank” <frank@postsecret.com>
Subject: Re: PostSecret Help
I’d always wanted to write to you but never thought it’d be under such circumstances, ugh sorry. I’m secretly planning my death.
I realised I have depression this March. Since then I began taking some meds, and I was getting better this week. 2 nights ago, I went to a friend’s to pick up my earring I dropped the other night (he invited some friends to come over). I only had 1 drink then I got so drunk somehow. He fucked me. It hurt so much and I kept bleeding for a day. I feel extremely shame on myself since that night. I can’t even face myself, and the only thing I am thinking is to restart my life.
I couldn’t go to school today. I can’t function (a bit like my depression). I had a mental breakdown in the bathroom while taking a shower. I can’t tell my therapist (also a teacher and colleague of my mom’s from my primary school). I know it’s wrong so I went to the medical centre to find another therapist. But the registration takes a week to complete. I feel desperate. The memory keeps playing in my head.
What a fucken life!!
Regards,
-Z
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From: “frank” <frank@postsecret.com>
Subject: Re: PostSecret Help
Hi Z-
This is one of the most difficult emails I have ever read. I can understand why you are in pain right now. I’m sorry that is is overwhelming right now. But I believe the fact that you took the time to share this with me indicates that part of you still wants to live.
Know this, at this exact moment, you are not alone with your heavy and suffocating feelings. I get postcards with confessions similar to yours every week, especially from young people who have suffered a traumatic experience through no fault of their own. It might not feel like it, but pain can dissipate, no matter how much it lies and tries to convince you otherwise. If your pain eventually lessened would you still want to kill yourself? Some of the secrets I receive say, I don’t want to die, I just want to pain to stop. I also get postcards from people who have found their way through the pain. They don’t say everything is great and life is painless now, but they are surprised that things can get better with time, medication, God, love, friends, music, therapy, family, a beloved pet, meditation, even endurance exercise (that’s what worked for me).
I hunted through the PostSecret archive to find two stories of people who have secrets related to the story you shared with me. Not everyone finds their way to survival and healing like these two courageous women, but it is possible. Over time there is a chance you will overcome. Give that chance time to happen, you owe it to that girl you were, and your future self. I hope that future self will mail me a postcard like one of these someday.
Maybe your depression is how you are expressing the righteous anger you must feel toward your attacker. Don’t let that rapist win. You are more important than your assailant. That is why I stopped everything I was doing to write you this message.
You wrote that your are having trouble finding a therapist. I totally believe you. Last night, I was speaking at a large university and a student told me she was waiting over a month for counseling. Another student said they were told by the campus counselor to find help off-campus. That sucks. It’s not fair, it happens to a lot of young people and it’s 100% not your fault. Here is a link to hundreds of crisis lines world-wide. Please use it and share it with others – in the future.
Here’s a link to a Harvard Study that found that nine out of ten people who attempt suicide and survive will not go on to die by suicide at a later date. This has been well-established in the suicidology literature and it’s a powerful fact to keep in mind. Nine out of ten people who felt just like you, desperate enough to kill themselves, if they were able to find their way through their worst night, got better and never made another attempt for the rest of their lives.
Can I ask you a question? Does anything still bring you joy in life? A pet, a sibling, a friend, a grandparent, a band, the beach, a book, Epic Universe, Othani in the pennant race, a forest walk, Taylor Swift’s next album?
I attached one last image to this email. It’s an picture of a young woman sending up a helium balloon of hope for a stranger who had mailed in a secret like yours. Because of one secret, over 60,000 strangers cared enough to create a “Please Don’t Jump” facebook page proving people do care and there is hope, even if your depression has convinced you otherwise – don’t believe it, depression and anxiety are liars.
A friend of mine – Kevin Hines – tried to jump off the Golden Gate Bridge to end his life. He is one of the ten or so people, from the thousands who have jumped off that bridge and died, to have survived. He travels the country sharing his inspiring story. It’s like his life was spared so that he can reveal the secret last thought of people who attempt suicide. He has shared his story with millions of people around the world. This is what he says, As soon as I let go of the cables and began to fall from the bridge, I realized I was making a mistake.
Be well,
-Frank
[After I shared the message above on facebook, I invited the PostSecret Community to, “share something you would have never experienced if you had completed suicide”. There were hundreds of heartfelt stories. Here are a handful. . . ]
• Today my son received a beam initiative scholarship and a bassoon lesson with Lecolion Washington (LW plays the basson in The Lion King). I am so glad I decided to walk through the tunnel. There is a light at the end and it’s beautiful.
• If I had killed myself almost 4 years ago, I would have never accepted myself as LGBT; I wouldn’t be as close with my parents; and I would have devastated my dog who adores me. Without me he would have probably been passed from owner to owner, not living the life of adventure I’ve given him.
• I wouldn’t have experienced finding the right mix of medication to help me understand how my life should be!
• The love of this good hearted man. Not too mention so many other things, like my current job where I get to help others.
• Camping with my sister and our kids. Waking up at 6am and watching the sun rise over the mist on the lake. I would have missed this and so much more.
• I would’ve missed the chance to be with someone who sends me messages like this.
• I never would have been able to help my sister get the help she needed if I gave up 2 years ago. My life isn’t perfect, but I am so thankful for how far I’ve come.
• I mean, come on, we’ve all got to vote in 2020! And I agree, there’s always something good to look forward to… even if you don’t know what it is, yet!
• I would’ve been gone before she arrived. Shes worth staying for.
• Becoming a midwife and being the one to witness and welcome hundreds of new lives into the world.
• In May of 2009 after my second combat tour I was found hanging from a tree branch. This photo was a month ago. Not a day goes by that I’m not happy, I know what could have been. Nothing, and I repeat nothing, is worth not being there for. I cherish every moment now because I know I chose to forfeit everyone of these and that I don’t deserve them. But I get them, and I will love every one of them.
• I never would have gotten into medical school and had the honor of putting on this white coat and helping others. I never attempted but thought about it every day for a very long time. Took me until well into my adulthood to realize that there are downs, and then eventually ups again and if you check out early, you never get to see what your ups may have been.
• I’ve still got too many people to piss off yet.
• This guy. Oh! And my husband.
• the northern lights
• Getting to ride again.
• Goodness . . . I’m sitting at the table trying not to sob as I read this, because I don’t want to have to explain it to the family . . . At 16 I contemplated it. The only thing that stopped me was I didn’t want my Mom to find me. If I would have went through with it, I wouldn’t have met the group of friends who got me started in allowing myself to show the goofy side only when I was with them, then at 30+ I wouldn’t have met the amazing people on f.b. who allowed me to be the silly, goofy, weird me, that most people in real life look at me funny when they see it because I’m always so serious. Thanks #PostSecret for making me emotional, but also challenging me to think of what I would have missed out on.
• Just because you haven’t found your reason to live yet, it doesn’t mean you never will.
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post_secret_feed) wrote2025-09-14 12:05 amOff The Table
Hi Frank –
I sent you this secret some time later in my college days. Then I sent you an update after a few years later as well – which is when I think my secret debuted on Sunday Secrets. I didn’t screenshot or save it. If you have a copy of that, that would be cool.
I wish I could say that the journey was as linear as youthful self once thought and that everything was rainbows and butterflies these days. Mental health seems to be more of journey than a destination. I did find a hella good therapist about four years ago who helped me realize that I was neurodivergent. What a difference that made on my perspective. We are slogging through some trauma work. The commitment to following through on this secret did take suicide off the table. The struggles have been many since then and the journey hasn’t been perfect. However, I’m still here and resilience has won the day. Thanks for giving people a place to launch things into the universe.
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torachan) wrote2025-09-13 09:50 pmDaily Happiness
2. We had a nice morning at DCA. Left before the sun finally broke through the clouds, and before it got crowded.
3. We stopped at Trader Joe's on the way home, and since it was still overcast and I was feeling like another walk, I decided to walk home from there (about a mile and a half) and let Carla drive home with the shopping. I stopped at the farmers market on the way for some fruit leather and juice. No watermelon lemonade, but there was calamansi juice.
4. Gemma looks annoyed at being disturbed.
sovay) wrote2025-09-13 11:35 pmOn the edge and off the avenue
estirose) wrote2025-09-13 09:00 pmYaaaay!
Fatal Frame II remake! The costumes look different, but I think it's at least taking some cues from Deep Crimson Butterfly, which along with Fatal Frame IV and V was (re-)released on some form of the Wii (and therefore easier to bring to modern devices). And again, it is not Switch-exclusive.
I'm hoping they ditch the ghost hand mechanic that really was annoying in Deep Crimson Butterfly (and IV, and V). It's the only bit of the game I really didn't enjoy.
Oooh, they seem to have added the ability to run, something that didn't appear until Fatal Frame V... before that, the fastest any of our protagonists moved was maybe a very slow jog.
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thisfinecrew2025-09-13 08:41 pmPalestine/Gaza Awareness
- Israel continues to bomb multiple Arab nations and threaten them; they last struck Qatar attempting to assassinate Hamas leaders who were there at the invitation of the US to discuss a ceasefire with Israel. The result of that is now Arab nations are rethinking their relationships with the US. They are also continuing to bomb Gaza daily and round up people in the West Bank.
- Laura Loomer got the US to stop issuing travel visas to Palestinian children traveling for humanitarian and medical treatment.
- Meanwhile, in the US, the House just passed a Lauren Boebert amendment to the Pentagon budget that would target the BDS movement.
- Rep Brian Mast just introduced a new bill that would allow Marco Rubio to revoke US passports, including US citizens, at his whim, but basically if you criticize Israel.
- Earlier this week, progressive House Reps and others like Mahmoud Khalil and Cynthia Nixon did a big push for HR 3565 Block the Bombs Act, which would block the President from selling certain munitions to Israel, except under specific conditions. There are now 46 cosponsors, all of them Democratic. 7 joined this month. Although Reps Thomas Massie and Marjorie Taylor Greene have both made statements opposing Israel, they have not joined as cosponsors.
petra) wrote2025-09-13 11:19 pmDon't ask a question you don't want answered - Star Wars triple drabble
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Star Wars Prequel Trilogy
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Padmé Amidala/Anakin Skywalker, Obi-Wan Kenobi/Anakin Skywalker
Characters: Padmé Amidala, Anakin Skywalker
Additional Tags: Triple Drabble, Mutual Pining
Summary:
Padmé asks Anakin a question and gets a surprising answer.
lovelyangel) wrote2025-09-13 07:58 pmPortland Saturday Market 2025
 September 13, 2025 Nikon Z8 • NIKKOR Z 85mm f/1.8 S f/2 @ 85mm • 1/1000s • ISO 100 |
It’s just about time for me to start assembling my annual photo calendars. And, as usual, I worry about whether I have enough decent photos for production. Usually I create three calendars, but because of changes in Jenni’s work, I no longer have to create a third calendar. That should make photo selection easier.
Anyway, the cutoff date for calendar photos is the end of September, and I thought I should take one last attempt to snag photos. Today was a perfect day for me to do a quick trip to Portland Saturday Market. The forecast for early afternoon was sunny in the mid 70s °F in Portland.
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cornerofmadness) wrote in wipbigbang2025-09-13 07:29 pm
Fic - The Porn Star Murders / Hazbin Hotel
Fandom: Hazbin Hotel
Link To Fic: here on AO3
Link To Art By afteriwake: here on AO3
Summary: Angel has settled in well after the death of Valentino at his hands. He is running Val’s movie empire with far more skill than anyone thought. What he wants to concentrate on now is taking the budding relationship with Husker to the next level. What he gets is someone ‘murdering’ his best stars. Death might not be permanent in hell but when his stars are torn to flinders, it’ll take them a long time to pull themselves together. It is good way to ruin his business and bring his term as an overlord to an end. With Husker, Rosie and Arackniss at his side, Angel has to track down this threat to his new empire and deal with it like his father taught him so long ago.
Warnings: dismemberment, skinning, cannibals, referenced rape, sex work, graphic violence, lots of swearing in two languages, homophobic family members, family dysfunction
Characters: Angel Dust, Arackniss, Husk, Rosie, Henroin, Vox and Velvette
Pairings: Angel Dust/Husk
When I Started: Earlier this year. It fits into my Spider Brother series.
How I Lost My Shit: I didn’t so much as lose my shit as I needed a deadline to help me focus.
How I Finished My Shit: Determination and like I said, deadlines help. Also Angel really wanted to tell this story.
sartorias) wrote2025-09-13 06:26 pmSeptember is nearly half over...
With library going away I've resorted more to TV, and I couldn't resist going back to watch Nirvana in Fire yet again. Between my last rewatch and this time, some team of actual humans (No AI) had gone through the, ah, somewhat problematical subtitles and cleaned up spelling, grammar, and meaning, clarifying a lot of small stuff that watchers who did not know Mandarin could only guess at.
It's just brilliant. Even though on this watch I see the problems with the end starting a bit sooner than I remembered, and I still believe that one more episode would have pulled together all the dangling bits and tightened up the emotional arcs, still the overall emotional velocity absolutely rams you straight through and beyond. For a couple of days I couldn't do anything but go back to look at scenes (some for like the twentieth time, or more). Not perfect, but even after ten years, for me it's the best television show ever made.
Well, back to your regularly schedule chaos.
hrj) wrote2025-09-13 06:19 pmBack from New Zealand
TLDR: I had marvellous fun, spent two weeks hanging with my BFF, enjoyed seeing a part of the world I'd never been before, had amazingly good weather for all but the last day, and fell in love with tree ferns. (Alas, no way I could grow them at my house even if I had the space.)
hannah) wrote2025-09-13 08:56 pm
p=m/V.
One of my clients has, some time ago, begun taking an injected antidiabetic medication, presumably for diabetes. I haven't asked and don't plan to. Mostly I noticed that when she needed to move a potted plant that felt like it weighted twenty to thirty pounds at most, she had a hard time lifting it, while I didn't have any trouble. While it's true she doesn't lift weights as much as I do, I can't help but think about how much I like that form of exercise for its direct benefits of being able to pick something up, move it, and put it down without issue, and how that's something I'm unwilling to mess with. There's healthy and there's skinny. There's also vanity, which I'm admitting to - without wanting to sacrifice health to get there. My relationship to gravity is secondary to my relationship to my closet and being able to readily find good pants at thrift stores.
setsuled) wrote2025-09-14 09:22 am
At the Close of the Day
I maintain that the fourth episode is good. Uncle Fester is unquestionably the high point of the season and it's a shame he didn't hang around for the succeeding episodes. After the lame body swap episode, I expected things to pick up in the final two episodes directed by Tim Burton. However, it was no longer '90s Burton but dull, corporate treadmill Disney Burton. The new dance sequence perfectly encapsulates everything wrong with this season.
There's nothing bad about the dance. Two pretty girls dance in a creatively choreographed sequence tied into the plot with a competent new song from Lady Gaga. It's a well made dance scene. Much like the writing this season, which lacks the glaring logistical flaws of season one. Some things may not make sense, like the way the characters behave in the body swap episode, or the fact that Agnes runs to Enid for help in the final episode despite Enid needing to stay in a cage due to a critical problem with her werewolf transformation. One subliminally understands that the characters have to interact because they're the main characters, that it's a limitation of the writers' imaginations or possibly the show's budget rather than the fever dream ridiculousness of the character actions and disjointed timelines of season one.
Perhaps it was the atmosphere of accident and haste that produced the good qualities of season one as well as the bad. The great thing about season one, as Grace Randolph put it, was seeing Wednesday "out of her comfort zone" dealing with romance. In a word, the character exhibited vulnerability. In season two, Jenna Ortega put her foot down and insisted that Wednesday would never, ever engage in a romantic plot. This is despite Wednesday's romantic subplot in Addams Family Values, the piece of Addams Family media arguably most influential on Wednesday.
The tension in Wednesday season one was between Wednesday's tightly controlled demeanour and the ever lingering possibility of her losing control. There's no sense of a loss of control anywhere in season two. The awkwardly inserted reaction shots of Jenna Ortega in the dance scene have much the tone of her appearance in the whole season. It's somehow as though Wednesday the character isn't truly there, as though she were added in post-production. The dance sequence in season one was captivatingly messy. There was the unexpected use of "The Goo Goo Muck", a much more arrestingly strange song than the bland new piece from Lady Gaga. There was the surprise in the very fact that Wednesday was capable of or willing to dance at all and the further unexpected fact of her odd and awkward grace.
Season 2 has fewer mistakes and it took fewer risks. The thing is, if an artist doesn't take risks or allow herself to be vulnerable, it's rare she'll ever produce anything interesting. Partly this is because, and certainly in a teen drama, the viewer is watching the characters to see how they deal with their own vulnerabilities. We all have vulnerabilities in life and art is useful when it reflects that.
Wednesday is available on Netflix.
veetvoojagig) wrote in sid_guardian2025-09-13 07:11 pmEp. 15 Screencaps
As well as regular shots of all our babies!
Edited with the correct link! Sorry about that!
fail_feed) wrote2025-09-13 04:00 pm'Guess whose sink was fixed within 48 hours?': Tenant stops doing favors for his landlord after his
A landlord doesn't realize the gravity of his tenant's apartment repair requests, so the tenant does something to catch his attention. After months of getting his maintenance requests denied, this tenant decided to stop doing favors for a guy who could barely return his texts. I guess that means this landlord wouldn't be receiving any of his packages anymore because it was always the tenant playing the middle man with the mail carrier.
Well, not anymore.
Landlords are an entitled bunch. Likely purchasing their painted-white cash cow apartment for the low, low price of two stones and a handshake, landlords forget what it's like to PAY to live somewhere. Luckily for us renters, however, we do wield a small amount of power over the lords of the land, because when something goes wrong, like a leaky sink or a tear in the carpet, it's not on us to get it fixed. Suddenly the landlord actually has to do something for a change, especially if it affects them directly.
musesfool) wrote2025-09-13 07:40 pm
thunder's rolling down this track
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The Mets did not get no-hit last night but they did lose, and then lost again today despite leading for 7.5 innings. *hands* There is something very wrong with this team, but who can say what? Sigh.
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torachan) wrote2025-09-13 04:15 pm2025 Disneyland Trip #62 (9/13/25)
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