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Published on September 16, 2025
Published on September 16, 2025
Media: Warner Bros. Pictures and Marvel Studios
Honduran white bats, sticker by the Atomic Pixies.
This was a long week (despite being a short work week for me) and a rough one. The shooting at Evergreen High School ("minor" as it was, considering, and how awful is that?) impacted me more than I expected, having interacted with the two named students. I didn't know them well, by any stretch, but it still hit me hard. The endless discourse around Charlie Kirk's death has also been completely exhausting. The stuff from early in the week - more back and forth getting the AC fixed, a walk in a neighboring city to see an uncommon bird - seems like it was way longer ago now. We had a model show to end the week, which was tiring but a nice break. Having a long weekend was a good thing.
Goals for the week:
Tracked habits:
(I've got way too much to catch up on.)
Looking for another job while currently employed inevitably feels like living a double life. You have to keep up with your current tasks and responsibilities at work so that nobody becomes suspicious about what you might be up to. At the same time, though, you need to make yourself available for interviews with other companies while devoting enough time and energy to preparing for those interviews so that you actually do a good job. It's a tough balancing act that few can accomplish with ease, and this employee certainly tried to pull it off. Unfortunately, it didn't exactly turn out the way they had hoped it would.
After being contacted on Indeed by a competitor, this author decided to hear what these folks had to say and took an interview with them. They weren't actually looking seriously for other job opportunities. This position would actually be a lateral move, but it would be at a company that was closer to their location and therefore more convenient for their commute. After a successful interview, the author felt good about their chances and was told they would hear more very soon. However, nothing was set in stone.
Soon thereafter, the author was confronted by their CEO, who had connected the dots and figured out that they were looking for work elsewhere. The author was backed into a corner and was unable to deny it. That's when they learned that the fragile CEO was letting the employee go as a result. The author began to suspect foul play. After all, how did the CEO figure it out? It's not like the employee was absent or doing a poor job in their current role. When the author contacted the other company, it became clear that there was, in fact, some communication behind their back.
Read MSRP: Manufacturer’s Suggested Retail Price? No, “My Spouse Runs The Play”
When we got to the dealer, the salesman would only talk to me. I was all buddy buddy with the guy, too, but he completely ignored my wife. We went along with it.
Read MSRP: Manufacturer’s Suggested Retail Price? No, “My Spouse Runs The Play”
Read Make Acronyms Great Again
Customer: "I thought maybe you could stitch the group's name onto some caps for us?"
Me: "We can do that. What's the name of the group?"
Customer: "Moms’ Annual Getaway Adventure!"
Published on September 16, 2025
A labor man broke his leg on the job by slipping between some dangerous high-rise scaffolding, but instead of leaving him to fend for himself with the medical bills and the leave, his manager stepped up and defended him. Knowing that it would cost the managerial team their safety bonuses, this upstanding subcontractor diligently recorded all of the events of his employee's injury and refused to let corporate brush his physical ailments to the wayside.
The right thing to do isn't always the easiest, but when it comes to meticulous compliance, this contractor is the defendant you want in your corner defending your case, because he was prepared to go the extra mile in good conscience.
Read The Only Thing Being Reduced Is Her Freedom
Customer: "This one’s damaged. Can I get a discount?"
Me: "No worries, ma’am. We’ve got plenty of new ones in the back that aren’t damaged."
She doesn’t look thrilled, but I think that’s the end of it.
There are certain situations where you just don't want to draw unnecessary attention to yourself. Things like avoiding making direct eye contact with the teacher in class to avoid answering questions, or that exceptionally long paragraph that's coming up.
In situations like this, it's best to go as unnoticed as possible. Flying under the radar becomes a method of self-preservation, even when you're not doing anything wrong; it's just that getting your teacher's attention at the wrong time would be mighty stressful and inconvenient.
As you grow up, the powers that be are no longer petty authority figures but mighty swollen bureaucracies and their agents of misfortune. Again, it's not that you're doing anything wrong, at least not intentionally, but drawing their gaze is like the eye of Sauron fixating on the Ring when Frodo slips it on his finger, and once the gaze is upon you, there is no going back.
Before you know it, you're going to be drowning in unnecessary administration and all the paperwork that comes with it, with fines for each small violation as a reward.
When it comes to building management, the local authorities' building inspector and the fire marshal are two of those things that you'd rather not have come poking around. With their technical policy manuals in hand, there is not a building in the world that these professionals could walk through where they couldn't pull up some violation that would need rectifying.
Don't get me wrong, this is all for good reason, good technical standards are written in the dark red ink of hard lessons. But when you're on the receiving end of an impossible list of required alterations, it doesn't feel this way. And I'm sure that's exactly how this landlord was feeling after they willingly brought themselves to the attention of the local fire marshal, putting an end to their quarrel with their tenant.
We kept getting fed the same bullshit, and it’s being laundered in the same kind of stories. [The New York Times] sucks, man. It doesn’t suck because it posted something dumb that betrays the paper’s poor commitment to video gaming’s wider place in our culture and artistic landscape. It sucks because it’s doing to games, and AI, what it seems to be doing to every other important beat of the 2020s: taking the worst people at face value.
On
.Read Won’t Let Me Eat, Then I’ll Eat Your Sales
Mum: "Could I have a small pizza from the kids’ menu, please?"
Waiter: *Shaking his head.* "I’m sorry, ma’am, but the kids’ menu is only for children."
Writer: Roger Stern
Pencils: Tom Lyle
Inks: Scott Hanna
Will's estranged father is dying in hospital, so he goes to visit him one last time.
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Published on September 16, 2025
The Pride of Chanur cover art by Michael Whelan
The Pride of Chanur cover art by Michael Whelan
Gtsto was the offspring of Atli-lyen-tlas, gtsto, ruthlessly abandoned, gtsto, hitherto gtste… who most valorously hid from gtst enemies until Chanur had come to port. Then, seeing my magnificence and, surely to afford me comfort, gtstisi became gtsto…
So Atli-lyen-tlas’ daughter had hid from assassins, and, attracted to Tlisi-tlas-tin had become… call it male. It didn’t bear offspring in this hormonal condition. If she presented what gtst had said to the universities at Anuurn or Maing Tol, she could justify a second certificate in foreign studies.1
This passage, where a spaceship captain discovers that an alien passenger has changed gender (and switched pronouns), might not be surprising in the modern sci-fi sphere, where books featuring trans and nonbinary characters are published far more regularly. But this book—Chanur’s Legacy—by C.J. Cherryh, came out in 1992, marking the end of Cherryh’s beloved Chanur saga, which began in 1981. Cherryh was writing about trans themes and identities in the era dominated by the social and religious conservatism of the Reagan administration and organizations like Focus on the Family; they are deeply interesting, and worthy of greater attention and recognition.
With a background in archaeology and classics, Cherryh is known for building complex alien societies anchored in cultures, social mores, and neurobiology foreign to humans. This leads to intricate conflicts as species’ differing customs and behaviors come into contact with each other. Often, these conflicts involve conceptions of gender.
Take the hani, the main species of the Chanur series. The hani are inspired by lions, by which we mean the males laze about while the females do everything. The males nominally rule big, sprawling estates as clan lords, but in reality, they are considered too short-tempered and irrational to be trusted with important decisions, so the females run the estates and, once the hani discover space travel, crew the spaceships. The lords’ only job is fighting off male challengers and “lying about on cushions with a dozen wives to see to the nastiness2.”
Anyone who can do arithmetic can spot that this isn’t as good a deal for the males as it seems. Adolescent male hani “had to go out into the outback to live, learn to hunt and to fight each other and if boys lived long enough they could come back and try to drive some older man out into the outback to die3.” And when an aging clan lord is defeated, his reward is either death or a pitiful exile. To a hani, “Males were what they were, three quarters doomed and the survivors, if briefly, estate lords, pampered and coddled4.”
No wonder not every male rushes to embrace this role.
When Pyanfar, a hani ship captain and the protagonist of the Chanur series, finds her deposed mate Khym injured and hiding at the fringes of another male’s territory, “surviving, out of his time and his reason for living5,” she offers him a berth on her ship, telling him, “It’s different out there… Right and wrong aren’t the same. Attitudes aren’t the same… Might start a fashion6.”
Easier said than done. While Khym is not a stereotypical bad-tempered male—“as males went, he was a rock of stability and self-control7”—he’s learned to be lazy and fails to pull his considerable weight. When warned to control his temper, he complains, “We’re set up to fight. Millions of years—it’s not an intellectual thing. Our circulatory system, our glands8 […]”. Pyanfar tells Khym he’s “spoiled by a mother that coddled your tempers instead of boxing your ears the way she did your sister’s. He’s just a son, huh? Can’t be expected to come up to his sister’s standard9.”
Khym struggles because he isn’t just changing jobs—he’s switching gender roles. From a hani perspective, Pyanfar must feminize him so he can join her crew. But he learns. Pyanfar is astonished when he accepts drudge work, “by the gods, the ex-lord of Mahn on galley duty, no complaints10.” A turning point comes when Pyanfar loses her temper and nearly attacks an important hani and finds “Khym’s arm between her and the Ehrran: Khym, whose mind had gone on working when hers quit11.” At the end of that voyage, she awards him an earring—a badge of honor that hani spacers earn for their travels, only ever awarded to females. Khym has learned how to be female.
Meanwhile on the homeworld, Pyanfar has started a dustup over gender roles. Mentioning men at all is rocking the boat—“Ten, fifteen years ago, you didn’t by the gods use the male pronoun in a message between clans. It still felt queasy and indecent12”—and Pyanfar is asking them to rethink their fundamental understanding of society. Are males just built that way? Or is it, as Pyanfar claims, “custom, not hardwiring13?” It’s an argument that humans have been having for decades, with the same key point of contention—once someone has been assigned a sex at birth, are they shackled to that role forever?
Khym adapts to a female role out of necessity. In Chanur’s Legacy, though, we meet a male hani who adopts a female role by choice. The adolescent Hallan has decided to “fight biology and go to space14.” Hallan is a miserable fit for the traditional male gender role. He’s shy, curious, bookish, and terrible at fighting. He surreptitiously reads romance novels. “Whether you read him as trans or queer, the feeling of being an other is palpable. He cannot survive the violent life dictated to male hani, his only role to sacrifice his body in a system he does not believe in, but is forbidden to travel the stars and seek something else for himself on account of his gender,” says Dorian Dawes, author of A Dream of Saints.
Hallan isn’t just escaping from a bad lot in life—he actively wants to be female. He “insisted he was one of the girls, that he was cool-headed, he wanted to play the game on their terms15.” And he wants not only the female role, but female biology. He has “[i]llusions he was a girl16.” He dreads that in the future “when he got all his size and hormones kicked in for good and earnest, he wasn’t going to be worth anything but one thing until he was as old as Khym Mahn and hormones had stopped making him crazy… worst of all, to think that, over the next few years, he might progressively lose his self-control and his reason17.” Fearing your hormones turning you into someone you don’t want to be—it’s a feeling all too familiar to trans people.
Yet everywhere he goes, people see only his birth sex, and misunderstand him because of it. When he impulsively hits someone and lands in jail, everyone assumes he’s another crazy male hani, but “[t]ruth was, he’d been scared, not mad21.” He’s desperate to prove himself, but his rookie mistakes get blown out of proportion. An alien passenger flips out at the sight of him, protesting that “our presence has been assaulted by strange persons of male and violent gender22.” Dorian Dawes sees a strong connection to the trans experience: “This idea that you are bound to your biological sex, and everyone perceives your male hormones as a threat to female spaces feels all too familiar in 2025, and Cherryh uses this metaphor with devastating precision.”
Among the hani, gender is rigid. Among their neighbors the stsho, gender is fluid. The stsho are “trisexual hermaphrodites, one of each triad bearing young: but that same individual may exist within another triad as a non-bearer. Stsho refuse to explain23.” When stressed, stsho go through a transition called Phasing and come out an entirely different person, sometimes with a new gender that, thanks to hormonal changes, is capable of reproducing in its new role. “Stsho change sex, change person, change everything24.” After phasing, they are treated as a completely new entity, and “it was not at all polite to recognize the refurbished person25”—that is, to deadname them.
The stsho use their own pronouns: gtst for the neuter gender, which engages with outsiders; gtste for (more or less) female; gtsto for (more or less) male; and gtstisi for those currently Phasing. Finally, elder stsho take on a completely genderless role—different than neuter—with the pronoun gtsta. For the stsho, gender is a temporary role that changes many times over their long lives, due to stress, politics, desire to find a mate, or for countless other reasons.
Interactions with the stsho can be complicated, unsurprisingly. The opening vignette comes from Chanur’s Legacy, where hani captain Hilfy accepts a contract to deliver a vase from a stsho governor to a stsho ambassador. The vase turns out to be a formal marriage proposal, which indicates “[t]he nature of the alliance. No’shto-shti-stlen’s position within it, which of the three… an emblem of proposed gender26.” Since only one gender serves in politics, many parties have a strong vested interest in the exact nature of the offer, and Hilfy finds herself embroiled in intrigue.
Finally, we have the kif. The kif “hit the ground at birth competitive, aggressive, and (some scholars surmised) having first to escape their nest before they were eaten27.” “What their genders are is a matter of guesswork28” and “he” is used by outsiders only by convention. Instead, their culture is organized around a principle called sfik, which translates to something like “face.” For a kif, life revolves around gaining sfik or causing others to lose sfik. They have no other model for social interaction.
Usually.
Skkukuk is a castoff from a former kif master who considers him worthless. Given to Pyanfar as a gift, he initially “looked sinister in one instant, beaten and pathetic in the next29,” devoid of sfik and clearly not flourishing within the kif social order. As author Tuxedo Catfish put it on Bluesky, Skkukuk is “somehow trans despite belonging to a species whose closest analogue to gender is ‘how much boss are you’.”
Pyanfar considers him a dangerous, annoying liability, but when she finally begins allowing him responsibilities on the ship, he is eager to please, proving resourceful and trustworthy. It is Tully, the human crewmember, who figures him out: “He want be hani… He kif, he same time got no friend with kif, he be little kif. They kill him, yes… He don’t be hani, he die30.” Unable to live with his birth-assigned social identity, he adopts a new one.
Skkukuk reappears years later under the name Vikktakkht. He commands a fleet now, but still demonstrates un-kif-like attitudes. He foregoes the opportunity to turn on Pyanfar to increase his own sfik, saying, “if I aspired to be mekt-hakkikt the peace would end31,” even though kif supposedly can’t understand the concept of peace. He blindsides Hilfy by dealing fairly with her when she’s in a precarious situation. He takes to Hallan, visiting him in jail, doing favors for him, and offering him an honored spot at a negotiation table. Hilfy is baffled: “Why had Vikktakkht wanted him? Why had Vikktakkht insisted to speak to him, except to get a less wary answer?32” Vikktakkht’s answer is “I find him amusing33”—perhaps the closest he can get to expressing his feelings with the language he understands—but the real answer is something the kif are supposed to be biologically incapable of: friendship. Another alien says of the kif, “Nobody friend. Don’t got word, ‘friend.’ Just ‘advantage34’”but Vikktakkht apparently does. He saw the struggling misfit who no one trusted, sympathized with him, and took him under his wing.
The trans connection here is more subtle than it is for the stsho, but the parallels are there: Being born into a supposedly immutable biological and social role that doesn’t suit you at all, suffering for failing to fulfill that role, blossoming when you find an identity that fits you, and—of course—finding community with others in the same position. Tuxedo Catfish explains, “he’s constantly mistreated in ways that don’t really register as mistreatment to him, and once people start feeling guilty about it you can almost see the wheels turning in his brain as he realizes both that this is better than the life he lived before and also that he can take advantage of it.”
Alien gender revolutions, aliens who regularly switch genders, aliens who take on social roles from other alien species—the Chanur series is full of trans themes and concepts, and many trans readers have seen themselves reflected in characters like Hallan. Today’s science fiction continues to build on the decades-long heritage of authors who used sci-fi as a space to explore ideas about society long before they were mainstream in the real world—playing a key part in that heritage is C.J. Cherryh, who took a hard look at how our society views gender and saw other possibilities.[end-mark]
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