I was never there, I only read the book, I only saw the film
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When it comes to powerfully good cake, the choice is (nu)clear:

And here's some fuel for thought: this wasn't a special order. It was just out in the display case, on the off chance someone was having a nuclear power plant themed occasion worth celebrating.
HOW WELL THEY KNOW ME.
Thanks to Clare M. for the rad wreckporting.
*****
P.S. And if you like that, then I have just the punny shirt for you:

"Overreacting" Chemistry Shirt
:D
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And from my other blog, Epbot:

sad dirty elder millennial commie seeks friends for virtual coffee
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Age: near 40
I mostly post about: Right now my journal is new so I'm not exactly sure but I haven't written anything since about 2015. I'm mostly posting stream of consciousness thoughts and things that won't leave my brain like themes in fiction and in life. I might make my journal friends-only soon since that's a thing I can do and write things that are more personal because my life is sort of a mess at the moment and I need to write it out. I'm an artist and I've been putting a lot of effort into my art career recently so I know I'll be writing about my process and struggles there.
My hobbies are: I dabble in all kinds of painting and crafts, but mostly watercolor and ink. I crochet, do some embroidery, I'm relearning web design and have started making web pages as art and for fun. I used to play more video games but nothing has caught my interest lately but I have played Disco Elysium, Fallout 76, Stardew Valley, Breath of the Wild, some GTA Online, Animal Crossing (Pocket Camp, but it counts!) and other random rpgish games. I also have been playing a lot of Dungeons and Dragons lately, and I love coming up with characters! Trying to get back into writing, right now just blogging but maybe fiction and poetry soon. I don't know if I'll write fanfic, I have started making icons again and I think I'll have fully regressed into my old LJer self if I write fanfic again. Which might not be BAD.
My fandoms are: Currently I have some hyperfixations but I hesitate to call them fandoms in the old fashioned way. I'm less obsessed with things than I used to be but I will say my old fangirl tendencies have popped up a little again.
Right now I'm into The Matrix movies including Resurrections, Neo/Trinity might make me read fic again and I'm also watching Sense8 for the first time and I'm really liking it so I'm in a Wachowski Sisters kinda mood.
I love AEW wrestling and I'll list my favorite wrestlers for you if you care. lol
I'm also watching Legends of Tomorrow and almost done with it, pretty into it and I love Constantine.
I recently read the Southern Reach series and could talk about those books forever. Jeff Vandermeer and Edward Carey are my favorite living authors with Shirley Jackson being my favorite classic writer.
Music I'm fannish about is Lord Huron and Tyler the Creator. I'm into indie hip hop and I've gotten into riot grrrl music for the first time recently.
I'm looking to meet people who: Just want to talk and connect? No bullshit, just sharing random cool thoughts and ideas. I'm a stoner, can we start an internet blunt rotation? lol
I've seen a lot of people saying this online recently but I'm looking for that old internet feeling again. I made a Neocities page, I want to talk to people about shit again and not just tweet a few sentences and hope it gets likes.
My posting schedule tends to be: Sporadic as of late but I'm going to post more now that I'm here. I was posting on tumblr here and there but I felt like there were no conversations to be had there. I'm aiming for once a week at least.
When I add people, my dealbreakers are: No bigotry, no terfs, no AI worshippers, MAGA-heads or generally fuckery. I'm basically a dirty commie and I'm not too afraid to talk about it so if that makes you uncomfortable oh well.
Before adding me, you should know: I'm currently struggling quite a bit in life, lost a lot of my agency and control because of lack of money, lost my apartment, and my general sense of self so I might talk about that at times. I'm disabled and queer, neurodivergent and cannot find a job to save my life and currently live with my partner and their family which is rough. If you don't want to hear about my personal bullshit from time to time, I'm probably not the person to follow.
Poll: Of violins, weddings, and the wages of blackmail (drama)
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In ep 13, why is Zhao Yunlan playing the violin when Shen Wei arrives at the acoustic lab?
he's killing time, waiting for Shen Wei to show up, and the violin was right there
3 (23.1%)
he's enjoying the lab's acoustics
3 (23.1%)
it adds flair to the dramatic reveal/accusation
6 (46.2%)
he's playing a specific/meaningful piece of music that he expects Shen Wei to recognise
0 (0.0%)
he's playing random notes
1 (7.7%)
the violin is a Sherlock Holmes reference
5 (38.5%)
let's not mention his technique :-)
7 (53.8%)
other
0 (0.0%)
Was Shen Wei an official guest at the Li–Huang wedding?
yes, he’s one of Dragon City’s most eligible bachelors! he arrived late to avoid the inevitable matchmaking conversations with hopeful parents
3 (27.3%)
yes, he was late for other reasons
0 (0.0%)
yes, the bride is his former student
1 (9.1%)
no, he was drawn by the presence of the Hallows/a disturbance in the Force, and power-changed from Envoy robes to appropriate wedding attire just before entering the scene
4 (36.4%)
Shen Wei is always dressed for a wedding
6 (54.5%)
other
1 (9.1%)
When Zhao Yunlan tells Lin Jing to hack Cong Bo’s computer and delete all the files, what does Zhao Yunlan say (given he can't reveal Shen Wei's secret)?
“Cong Bo is blackmailing the SID with unspecified blackmail-worthy evidence. Don’t ask any questions or I’ll deduct your bonuses for the rest of the year!”
4 (30.8%)
“Cong Bo is a grade-A troublemaker! Wipe his hard drive so I can recruit him as a consultant. (Don’t argue, this makes perfect sense.)”
1 (7.7%)
“Delete Cong Bo’s files, no questions asked, and I’ll get you a mass spectrometer or whatever it is you’ve been asking for.”
7 (53.8%)
“Cong Bo has a sex tape of me and Shen Wei. I need you to delete it. If you look at it, you’re fired.”
1 (7.7%)
other
1 (7.7%)
The Dragon City Tourist Board’s next slogan should be
Dragon City – Enjoy the City
3 (23.1%)
Dragon City – Interdimensional portals are actually quite rare!
2 (15.4%)
Dragon City – Come for the stinky tofu, stay for the supernatural shenanigans
2 (15.4%)
Dragon City – Only the locals get murdered!
3 (23.1%)
Dragon City – Home of Haixing’s Hottest Cops
4 (30.8%)
Dragon City – It’s science!
5 (38.5%)
other
2 (15.4%)
Fannish Stuff
Sep. 3rd, 2025 04:22 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Anyway, it's September. Autumn is around the corner, which is my favorite time of the year, and I'm desperately going to do my best to force myself to remember how to be a person instead of a constant ball of panic. It's easier said than done with some of the money and work stress going on, but hey! I'm gonna attempt it anyway.
One of the things I'm going to do is really properly attempt to make at least one or two at least fannish-adjacent posts a week. I'm still hoping to make some video game posts like I mentioned in the past (Baldur's Gate? Dragon Age? Mass Effect? something else entirely?) but Critical Role is coming back for its fourth campaign next month so I'm hoping that will pull me back into on that front. Not to mention The Mighty Nein animated series starts Season 1 in November.
Plus exchange season is coming up! There several ongoing and upcoming Dragon Age exchanges, Yuletide is just around the corner, and Holly Poly will be shortly after that. And who knows? Maybe there will be something new that catches my eye.
I just need to focus on the little things and keep putting one foot in front of the other. 🤞🏻
Wednesday got rained on going out for a brief walk
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What I read
Finished A Darker Domain, which I thought was a bit so-so but maybe the series kicks it up a bit as it goes on?
Elizabeth Bear, Angel Maker (Karen Memory #3) (2025), which apparently is not supposed to be out until this week but Kobo UK let me purchase last week - a lot going on there (steampunk Western, for those who aren't acquainted with previous volumes) including making of silent movie with possibly sinister other motives and a lot of other stuff going on.
Latest Slightly Foxed.
Val McDermid, The Distant Echo (Karen Pirie, #1). Okay, I was pretty much spoiled for this because A Darker Domain mentions whodunnit, but still, not at all bad, even though it's a bit of a push to tag it with Karen Pirie, who is a very minor character who appears very late along in the narrative though does provide a key bit of evidence. (I am also a bit sad that McDermid has become this really quite mainstream crime writer after those early Women's Press years.)
On the go
Angela Thirkell, Love at All Ages (The Barsetshire Novels Book 28) (1959) - good grief, Ange, you really were phoning in this one, weren't you? (I bought it on promotion.) Padding, repetition, breaking the 4th wall, inconsistency - there is one character - the American-born Duchess of Towers - who at one point is Southern womanhood/invocation of Confederacy and at another has strong New England character, and we wonder about Thirkell's geography of the USA.... plus there is a couple who seem to be having Schrodinger's honeymoon, they are offered somebody's Riviera villa, but later mention that they will be doing a tour of cathedrals, and then they go off to Brighton hotel. Also she is really working her grudge against Ann Bridge as the novelist Mrs Rivers. It has its moments but one does feel her publishers just threw up their hands and said fuckit, if we do a full copy edit it won't be out in time for next Christmas let alone this year's.
Up next
Not sure, though there is a new Literary Review.
Wednesday Reading Meme for Sept 3 2025
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Nothing to completion.
What I'm Reading
Space Opera by Catherynne Valente – 48% I think this is a book about hope and about regret and about really excellent coats and having sex with the first alien you meet and using Looney Tunes to understand the galaxy. It makes me want to re-read Douglas Adams.
The Revolutionary Temper — Robert Darnton – like 35% in? It’s a cultural and literary look at the French Revolution. Really enjoying it - compared to my recent nonfiction, it’s a bit less focused on The Story of One Person.
Lent by Jo Walton – A re-read for a book club – only about 4% in. Still love it.
What I'll Read Next
The Left Hand of Darkness by Ursula K. Le Guin
Witness for the Dead by Katherine Addison
Monsters and Mainframes?
I feel due for a Pratchett.
Daily Check-In: Day 3
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- Yes
- No
- I've thought about it.
- I'm busy right now.
- I'm taking a break for now.
BtVS Triple Drabble: Miserable
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Title: Miserable
Fandom: BtVS
Author:
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Characters: Spike, Dru.
Rating: PG
Written Using: The dw100 prompt ‘Spike’.
Spoilers/Setting: Lovers’ Walk.
Summary: Spike is thoroughly miserable now that Drusilla has dumped him.
Disclaimer: I don’t own BtVS, or the characters.
A/N: Triple drabble and a half, 350 words.
FAKE Double Drabble: Wait And Hope
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Title: Wait And Hope
Fandom: FAKE
Author:
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Characters: Ryo, Dee.
Rating: PG-13
Setting: After the manga.
Summary: How can a violent assault take place in the middle of a crowd with nobody seeing anything?
Written For: Challenge 489: Amnesty 81 at
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Disclaimer: I don’t own FAKE, or the characters. They belong to the wonderful Sanami Matoh.
A/N: Double drabble.
Double Drabble: Reassurance
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Title: Reassurance
Author:
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Characters: Ianto, Jack.
Rating: PG
Written For: Challenge 881: Official at
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Spoilers: Nada.
Summary: Going on a date with Jack is not without its problems.
Disclaimer: I don’t own Torchwood, or the characters.
A/N: Double drabble.
Fanfiction: Bad Company (Danganronpa: Despair Time, Arei/David)
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Title: Bad Company
Fandom: Danganronpa: Despair Time
Rating: 15
Pairing: Arei/David
Wordcount: 1,200
Summary: Arei grins. “Hiiiii, David. That’s the real you, isn’t it?”
( Bad Company )
QOTD: On the 1950s
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"Much of the Fifties existed in order to edit out of history the freedoms of wartime: a renewed McCarthyite puritanism drove homosexuality further underground with the inevitable psychic consequences. By the mid-to-late Sixties, there were all sorts of exposé! books, but not then: just a few coded, discreet novels (like James Barr's Quatrefoil), which would usually end in suicide or death."
Jon Savage (quoted in Loaded, by Dylan Jones)
TMNZ s6e5-6, Worldcon part 3: Friday Aug 15 panels
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TMNZ s6e05 -- this was a less fun episode for me: I thought the tasks were not all that interesting, nobody did anything I really loved, and Jeremy's scoring continued to annoy me with nothing to distract me from it really. I mean, it was still a baseline level of fun, but was the episode this season I enjoyed the least so far. ( Spoilers from here )
TMNZ s6e06 -- I'm digging Pax's jacket, which is like the upholstery of your grandma's armchair, and also Bree's crossed swords necklace. And Jackie's wig du jour. ( Spoilers )
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Continuing on with the Worldcon account:
( Friday, Aug 15: panels )
By this point it was 8:30 p.m. and time to head over to the Terra Ignota fan fathering, but I'll leave that for the next post (right now I'm thinking that + the Saturday panels could be one post, and the Hugo Awards and my thoughts on the stats a different one, but we'll see; maybe Sunday will fit in there also...)
( A couple of photos -- mostly just Hugo bases this time )
“En Paz” — two translations
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Because “En Paz” is my husband’s favorite poem, I read it at a recent open mic here in Chicago, along with my two translations. The poem is by Amado Nervo, a Mexican poet, and it’s one of his most beloved poems, published in 1916.
My first translation aimed at keeping the meter and rhyme of the original poem. Then I thought it might be a bit sing-song, and I had to force a few meanings to make it rhyme, so I made a second translation that hewed close to the original. At the reading, people had mixed opinions about which one they preferred. How about you?
En paz
Muy cerca de mi ocaso, yo te bendigo, vida,
porque nunca me diste ni esperanza fallida,
ni trabajos injustos, ni pena inmerecida;
porque veo al final de mi rudo camino
que yo fui el arquitecto de mi propio destino;
que si extraje la miel o la hiel de las cosas,
fue porque en ellas puse hiel o mieles sabrosas:
cuando planté rosales, coseché siempre rosas.
…Cierto, a mis lozanías va a seguir el invierno:
¡mas tú no me dijiste que mayo fuese eterno!
Hallé sin duda largas las noches de mis penas;
mas no me prometiste tú sólo noches buenas;
y en cambio tuve algunas santamente serenas...
Amé, fui amado, el sol acarició mi faz.
¡Vida, nada me debes! ¡Vida, estamos en paz!
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At Peace
So close now to my sunset, life, I bless you,
you never gave me hopes that were untrue,
nor unjust labor, nor suffering undue;
at the end of my rough road I see
I was architect of my destiny;
Wherever I put ice in things, they froze,
when I wanted honey, its sweets I chose:
my rosebushes always grew me a rose.
…True, winter will follow my endeavor:
but you never said springtime was forever!
Indeed, I spent some long nights lost in woe;
but you never pledged just comfort to bestow;
and yet some nights I thrilled beneath moonglow…
I loved, was loved, in sunshine found release.
Life, you owe me nothing. Life, we are at peace!
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At Peace
Very close to my sunset, I bless you, life,
because you never gave me false hope,
nor unjust troubles, nor undeserved blame;
because I see at the end of my hard path
that I was architect of my own destiny;
that if I took honey or ice from things,
it was because I put ice or delicious honey in them:
when I planted rose bushes, I always harvested roses.
…True, my youth will be followed by winter:
but you never told me May would last eternal!
I encountered of course some long nights of sorrows;
but you never promised me only good nights;
and on the other hand, I had some sacredly serene…
I loved, was loved, and the sun caressed my face.
Life, you owe me nothing! Life, we are at peace!
Recent reading
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A Separate Peace by John Knowles (1959). The edition I read has 'AN AMERICAN CLASSIC' in big letters across the top of the front cover, and what I think is that if Americans so badly want to write CLASSICS then they can jolly well learn to format and punctuate dialogue correctly. Anyway: If you took schooldays-era Raffles and Bunny, only they're the same age, and also they're American, and also it's the Second World War, you would not exactly have something like this book, but you might have something not entirely unlike it. I did not enjoy the book on the whole; a lot of the appeal of boarding-school stories for me is in the cloistered setting, the school as its own closed-off little world, and this book does not have that because the school setting can't be closed-off when the war keeps intruding everywhere, and this is a large part of the point of the book. However (wobbly grammar aside) it is a very good portrayal of a very specific kind of messed-up relationship, and indeed just a little bit gay even though the author apparently didn't mean it that way (?), and also very good at what it's trying to do vis-a-vis the war intruding on everything else in the world. Actually my favourite character was 'Leper' Lepellier, who is not involved in the central homoerotic relationship, but I think he deserves a nice boyfriend and also some more cool snails to make up for everything he has to go through.
Cider with Rosie by Laurie Lee (1959). Cakes and Ale by W. Somerset Maugham was in my last reading post, and it kept reminding me of this (because ale/cider, main character called Rosie, and for some reason the only thing I knew about this book is that it's set in Gloucestershire and Somerset hence reminded me of that), so I decided to read it. Most of it I merely didn't get on with very well—the style favours rich impressionism over descriptive or narrative substance more than I like, and there's neither the perceptive social observation (Flora Thompson <3) nor the likeable narratorial personality that I think make for a good memoir. Also most of the way through the book I was getting a sense that the author was kind of dodgy about women. (If I say as a synecdoche that he uses the word 'voluptuous' too much to sum up what I don't like about Lee's writing, does that make sense?) Anyway, in the penultimate chapter it turns out that he is not slightly dodgy but horrifyingly awful, and I think that's enough books by straight men for me this year at least. If you want to read a beloved classic memoir, please read Flora Thompson instead.
Wednesday Reading Meme
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Over the years,
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After a gap of years since my last Ngaio Marsh, I returned to my favorite Golden Age mystery author! (Sorry, Sayers and Christie. Sayers in particular I think is probably actually a better writer than Marsh, but the heart wants what it wants.) This time, I read A Wreath for Rivera, in which a convoluted-seeming mystery winds round to a satisfyingly simple solution. The family dynamics are excellently portrayed as usual in Marsh, and although I love her mysteries I do just a little bit wish she’d written a non-mystery or two, just to see how it would have turned out.
I also finished Daphne du Maurier’s Golden Lads: Sir Francis Bacon, Anthony Bacon and Their Friends, which is one of those books that is interesting while you’re reading it but also eminently put-downable, hence the fact that it’s taken me a few months. Despite the title, it’s really a biography of Anthony Bacon, Tudor Spy, with just a bit of Sir Francis Bacon (presumably Sir Francis’s name is more marketable). Major downside of being a Tudor spymaster: you pay for the whole operation out of pocket and are rewarded, at best, with gratitude.
Continuing the spy theme, I read Ben Macintyre’s Operation Mincemeat: How a Dead Man and a Bizarre Plan Fooled the Nazis and Assured an Allied Victory, a rollicking adventure featuring spies who are having the time of their lives. They pull off a major intelligence coup which is made into a major motion picture about fifteen years later, in which spymaster Ewen Montagu himself got to play a cameo role! Spying: extremely effective, glamorous, and also glorious. The antithesis of Le Carre.
What I’m Reading Now
In Elizabeth Gaskell’s Gothic Tales, I just finished the tragic story “Lois the Witch,” about a girl accused of witchcraft during the Salem witch trials. Really effectively miserable and claustrophobic. If anyone ever tries to pack you off to your sole remaining surviving family in Puritan New England, I strongly suggest that you find a job as an under-housemaid instead.
What I Plan to Read Next
Dick Francis’s Whip Hand awaits!